The mental mass of narc abuse

 It is totally an internal reality which we have and has little to do with what is going on in the outside world. It consists of our past,reactions to our past, societal and cultural expectations,gender expectations , and faulty thinking. the problem is that it takes up a huge chunk of mental space: it needs to quietly deconstructed by self education and introspection; once this has started we can learn to build internal and eternal boundaries and as we evolve our inner core may be strong enough to make those boundaries a little flexible- within our value system which hopefully has become clear as we do our self work....... I Think :-)

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