Getting a Handle on CPTSD

I have spent the past few weeks on various Facebook groups dealing with Narcissistic injury This has been useful but a little overwhelming. what I have started to see this evening is that the emotional build up i have inside is not from a single perspective,it has multiple perspectives.  T here is a sense of loss from a childhood incident. from this there is an extension unto family members, and then a sense of loss from feeling rejected . there is also a sense of guilt for projecting my powerlessness unto others. The thread of this sense of loss permeates all aspects of my life and i need to constantly ground myself in the present moment and live as best I can from new constructs and experiences   

Had an incident where I had two conscious triggers. There may have been others that I had missed. These annoyed me for the best part of yesterday. One thing that became clear is that these thoughts are driven by fear shame and threat of violence. They take up a lot of attention and have a large mental mass.when i get into this state there is a stuckness and a difficulty in moving forward in a meaningful way; my brain seems simply overwhelmed. I look for ways to neutralise these thoughts and sometimes these work temporarily.  Trying to neutralise these thoughts keeps the neutralisation circuits open and is ultimately unhelpful in the long term. The situation involved a difference of opinion with someone,there was no verbal altercations or explicit threats of violence, it was what most people would do in a day and what politicians make a living at.  so this mental mass has its own internal existence for me and consists of a miasma of jumbled thoughts, and feelings with no me...