Living with new boundaries

Once the penny dropped and I could see that I could have external boundaries they became defended in a very immature way ;maybe not as angst ridden as a teenager but with a degree of hostility. My new home became my castle and i needed to defend it. I can see now that that was a necessary step and an understandable one. It has taken many months to properly interact with my neighbours. 

 I have also been fighting an internal battle thinking that my relatives wouldnt approve of my decor; this too is understandable. I needed to see that everything wasn't necessarily a case of fight or flight. With my burned out energy levels it is more a case of crumple into a heap :-). Hopefully I can gently recharge my batteries and slowly improve my fitness levels..

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